(It all starts in exam hall...)
Ohh Shit. Ohh Shit!!! How am I gonna clear this time. I have hardly solved 40-50% of paper & additionally that stupid girl next to me is not showing me even one answer. How sincere I was in my school days!! Mom's right, I have lost my sincerity. Anyways, now i am not gonna let this happen again. For next exam am gonna prepare properly... I hope Sir muzpe khoonas na nikale aur muze pass kar de...
Ohkkk... so for next exam I am having 8 subjects, Its really God's grace I cleared this time. But i am not gonna play with my luck again. I am having decent time to cover each & everything. Yesssss... I can Do it!!! Let's start with this subject now....(in 15 mins) "Swa, It's your friend. He's asking whether you are home or not. What should I say??" "Oh Mom... (How can she say this so loudly) wait i am coming... Hey hi... No i was just doing TP.... right NOW.....ummmmm (I should not go ideally, but then he'll think m overacting. & waise bhi maine muhurat pe padhai ki shuruwat to kar di... So) Yes m coming.. Wer r u"
OMG.. Its like 2 months have passed since last exam & i m like nowhere... Swa its not good... what happened to that dedication n all. Lets start now... (in 10 mins reading position changes from vertical to horizontal)... (another 5 mins) M reading the same line for 5th time & still not understanding anything. I think I ma overburdened. I need some relaxation. lemme sleep...
... I know I know, its not going BEST, still this time atleast m trying since last 5-6 months. Now what can I do if there are so many other important things. I mean, I can't 'always' avoid calls (spends atleast 1.5 hrs on phone... daily), also its ok to go to a party/ dinner or an outing on alternate weekends. The better part is that I watched just 4 movies in 2 months (that makes all weekends busy though), Mann... m improving with time... & I'll study...
WTF... i give up.I can't miss this party. Everyone is going. Waise bhi ab tak itna try kiya to bhi kuch nahi hua, to aaj kya khak hone wala hey.... I will study in last month only. I can judge myself properly, so I know I perform only under pressure. So.. its last month for doing fun n all & then I will give my best...
"Swa, where are you going? I thought you are series this time, but nothing has changed. Try to remember how you were in your school days.... (there she goes.... ) Mom trust me, I know what I am doing.. I have a 'PLAN' & m following it...
Hey Bhagwan, please help me. I am very very tensed. Only 4 weeks for the exam (calculation changes from 1 month to weeks). How I am gonna cover this ocean of syllabus in such a 'short' time. Yarrr I should have begun earlier... Anyways now I have to concentrate only on IMP's... & waise bhi my luck is great..."
And its the exam day... I think I studied properly. I know i know I could have easily done better than this...don't worry everything will go well...
(In the exam hall) Ohh Shit. Ohh Shit!!! How am gonna clear this time.............
& The Study Circle Completes..!!
-Swaroop Khadilkar
